Monday, September 25, 2006

never be the same....

lately the Lord has been speaking to me in regards to a passage in the bible. for months, the Lord has led me to the life of Moses. He shows me the cries of Moses heart in the midst of a stiff-necked generation of the israelites. (Exodus 33)

Moses pleaded with the Lord, "If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you. Remember that this nation is your people."
After that he said something that really blew my mind.....

Moses cried out,"Show me your glory!"

I used to asked myself why did Moses want to see God's glory... this used to baffle me. However that day the Lord revealed to me His heart. He showed me that He was deeply touched by Moses's request because no one has ever asked him that. Many chose not to come too near to Him for fear of being struck by His Holiness. But Moses dared.. for one simple reason, not out of pride, but out of a love for His God. At that moment, Moses felt the anguish and pain of the Lord after the Israelites had committed a grave sin against Him- The Golden Calf. He knew that the Lord loves His pple, yet was torn to leave them for the fear of destroying them out of His Holy wrath. God was heart-broken. He was a dejected lover. Moses, in that moment, could feel this brokeness in God's heart. The feeling was so intense in him. He pleaded God not to leave... He was crying, " God, please don't go! teach me your ways so that I will learn and continue to please you, so that I can teach them. God, please don't go!"
God's heart was deeply moved. He teared. (He actually told me that) To Him at that moment, He felt love, love from a man, made from His very own hands.
Moses saw God's glory- the essence of who God is, His very characters and goodness. He saw and He was still alive because God protected Him from Himself- His Holiness. From that day on, he was never the same.

The Lord has moved me to tears several times when He led me to meditate on this passage. the intense feeling between Moses and Him. God seems to be asking me, "will you love me this way?" Every time I hear these words from Him, my heart just cried out to Him, " LORD, I want to love you like Moses, but i know i can't. show me you GLORY so that I will never be the same!" I prayed that God will change my heart. I prayed that He will soften me. I prayed that He will make me passionate for Him all of my life.

"Show me your Way, show me you Heart, show me your Glory."

Saturday, September 23, 2006

my niece is back!!!


in another hour, my niece will be back from melbourne! yeah!!! really excited to see her! she is really adorable. this time round, she will be here for 3 weeks!! yup.. which means for the next 3 weeks, she will come to school to fetch me home in my dad's car! always looking forward to see her in the car waving at me.. hahaha... ;D

Thursday, September 21, 2006

east coast park - roller blading

alex, parry, jerald, shaobing, jx, rachel, danae, basia
advert. for icemountain, 100 plus and milo
jj the cute 'hamster' jkjk
danae, rachel, me and jj
me and jj (ho hia di- *feeling*)
adeline, me and jx (my fingers 1 cm to his nostrils )
eh... everybody except those not in the pic..eh
me, jj, jon, jx, rachel and adeline

last last friday was fun! we went to east coast park to blade with the youth .. let me try to name all who were present... (u can skip this if u want): jj, basia, jason, thommy and serene, lester, jx, alex, matthew, shaobing, jerald, parry, zhiyang, jonathon, ruth, rachel, danae, adeline, janice, jia wen, yaoying,dunno le..think that's about it .. it was the first time for me again... been having many first experiences lately..hehe... though i am hitting 30... haha.. cannot believe it rite? i look so young..haha...okok.. enjoy the pic... ;D

SASHIMI!!!!!

yesterday went out to play pool with jj, kevin and shups.... ;) we met at Liang Court after work and shups brought us to this japanese restaurant for dinner cos she has a 50% discount to the total bill for all the promotion items.. we had ramen, salmon sashimi and soft-shell crabs and fried dumplings!!! simply irresistable! The sashimi is soooo fresh and delicious that we had 4 servings... the potion of the flesh that is near the salmon stomach is really fatty and juicy! so fatty that it almost appears white... haha... but really YUMMY!!! ;D.. it was my first time trying this potion of the fish. suddenly remember this infamous chant: sakae sushi sashimi sakae sushi sashimi.... (and it goes on and on till 'someone' finally yield to the power and magic of the chant....u noe who... haha)... BUT... let me tell u... u ain't taste anything yet till u try the fatty potion.. and let the fats melt and wash over ur tongue... (gurantee ur taste buds will be tinkling with joy ).. then u gurgle the fats and slowly swallow it, allowing it to wash down ur gullet....yumyum... drooling already???!! hahahaha..... XD
then i was commenting that shups is very polite and would actually say thanks to the waitress/waiter... then the rest of us tried to follow... kevin tried the 'cute' style of saying thanks and jj said it in a low dull voice ....hehe.....then i was commenting that we cannot make eye contact for too long when saying thank u cos it looks really awkward and like 'lao ti ko'...very funny lah...anyway... the best part is we only get to pay $15 each!!! WOW! really worth it! ;D...
after that we went for icecream. shups chose the green tea flavour, kevin chose the rum & rasin and i chose the durian flavour... then there came jj after making his phone call and started trying the different flavours... then after trying for so long still didn't buy...haha.... but finally bought the coffee flavour??
the pool session was good.. nice place, sofa and of course the company. i only won once and lost all the way... really rusty le.. shups was still good but not as in the past le... all our kung fu drop... then jj introduced this accelerator, clutch and BRAKE game... HAHAHAHAHA.. we chio ka beng! (shan't elaborate it here... seriously if u are interested with the game, approached the man) bet both of u must be laughing now....hahaha.... the whole night basically we were talking about PDA phone. seriously i'm thinking of getting a phone... considering between Sony Ericsson k800i and O2 atom (white colour one) ... hmmm.. any suggestions?
then we go home at 1015pm.... tired but shiok! fellowhip is always shiok!

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Greetings!

Today I went to the Singapore Boy's Home early in the morning for PSLE make up oral examination. It was my first time visiting the Home and I was actually quite excited. I had to collect the question booklet at Tiong Bahru Examination Centre (SEAB) before making my way there. When I realised that I would only be testing one candidate, I was like duh... all the way to Jurong West for a candidate... furthermore, including the CL oral examiners, there would be four of us going to Boy's Home just to test a candidate... haha.. quite funny.. anyway we still went ... My spirit wasn't dampened though... I was still excited and was wondering what God has installed for me there today...When we arrived, the first impression I got from the place was it really looked like a prison... high wall, huge gates.. double layers somemore.. the security was really tight. It took us quite a while to clear the security. As I was walking, I saw boys 13 to 16 years old doing push ups and watering plants. They were very disciplined. Finally, we met the contact person...Hmmm... He was really impersonal. He didn't even walk towards us to greet us nor shake our hands. He merely told us the boy was waiting for us over at a corner. We were given a classroom that was really small and stuffy and guess what, the student's table and chair are welded together and they are really heavy... guess they are afraid that the students might throw the tables and chairs at one another... or maybe the teacher.. I was like asking myself as I look at the boys,''Will I be here teaching someday? hmm.. Will God call me?" I just know that someone gotta be willing to stand for this youth... By the time we were back at the examination centre, it was only 10am... As I did not need to stay to help out for the second session at the centre, I left and hehe.. reaching home at 1030am.. Whoa! what a short day! Thank God! I was really sleepy and slept till 215pm. had lunch and went to find jj for a swim at tampines safra. haven't been exercing for quite a while le...it was really a great time swimming and working out our muscles. as jj put it, felt like all the latent energy was dissipated. also we heard 张学友's '吻别' in English!!! It was really distasteful.. or er xin...hahaha... jj commented only places like safra will play such song! haha...where warrant officers would say "hao ding' 'hao ding' .... i laugh till beng... then we went to his house and he let me hear the Mr Brown 'Mia Hum' lolllll i laugh till beng again.. then gotta leave cos he was having dinner with mum and dad.